Posted by: Chris Hoskins | September 19, 2008

What the?

So, I’ve spent the last we while thinking of things I want to blog about. Which of my thouhts do I think others would want to read? I had all sorts of cool topics in mind, what it means to be cool(inspired by Miss Whyte), more on mark yaconelli’s talks at NYA, my week at Morrlands for the start of my masters course..all sorts.

But a subject seems to have presented itself over the last 24hours. My niece, Iona Fraser.Those of you close to me know whats been going on with her. She was born this year on the 12th of August. Diagnosed 2 days later with a heart condition ( her Aorta was too narrow) so she was flown from Inverness to Yorkhill in Glasgow for specialist treatment. Since then its been a rollercoaster with her. Some days she’s doing well, other days she’s not so great. It’s been a real struggle fro the whole family, especially Jonnie and Susie (obviously!).

In a wierd way though, it’s been amazing to see how stongly Jonnie and Susie have bonded as a couple. Where they find their strength I don’t know(well, I do, but you know what i mean!). It’s been incredible watching them grow into such amazingly strong parents in such a strong space of time. I also can’t believe how much love I can have for her, I’ve only known her 5 weeks, most of which I haven’t been able to see her, but my love for her is so much I feel like I’m going to burst. I don’t know how Jonnie and Susie don’t explode with love for her, I just can’t imagine the love they must be feeling towards her!

The other thing is how we all view God in this. We’ve all been angry with him, confused why he’s letting this happen. I think Susie summed it up best. “It’s amazing how you can be so angry at God, but feel so close to him at the same time”. And it’s so true. Obviously Jonnie and Susie feel all these things to a stronger degree than the rest of us. We all want God to work in a more obvious way, in the way we want. We know in our head that he’s in control, but it’s hard to accept that when things are so bad.

I just hope this is all over soon and Jonnie and Susie can take Iona home for the first time. It breaks my heart to see them suffering so muhc, to see Iona constantly hooked up to machines. If you’re reading this and you’re a Christian, pray!!Please!!!

Edit: My favourite moment when I saw her today was being able to give her a wee goodbye kiss. As an Unlce all I want to do is play with her and cuddle her and bond with her, its lovely to be able to do that to a limited extent.


  1. i hope she gets better soon, after i was born i was taken to yorkhill with an irregular heart murmer, it was larger than others.

    i cant imagine how you’re feeling, but i truley hope everything works out

    will say a prayer for her and you and your family

  2. Thanks Chris for taking the time to write. May God’s healing and blessings be with Iona, Jonnie and Susie and also with you as you continue to love and support them.

    And yes we will continue to pray … miracles do happen.

  3. yip – thanks Chris. Its been a rollercoaster for you all, thank you for taking time to share with us your pain, your hope and your love.

    will continue to keep you all in my prayers

  4. Hey Chris, Hey Linda,
    you and all of your family are in our prayers. We can’t stop thinking about all of you and Baby Iona. I love her courage and spunk — from what you’all have said she is a tough little biscuit! Thanks for keeping this journal of love.

  5. Chris, Linda, all of the family and wee Iona, who has so touched our hearts, we continue to pray.

    God bless and keep you all wrapped in his loving arms.

    Thank you so much for your sharing. Our hearts hurt with you and we pray for healing for you all.

  6. Continuing to pray Chris – hope things improve very soon.

  7. hey chris, thinking of you and your family, pary your niece gets better soon x

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